Tuesday, July 05, 2005

a fantasy...V

Oh but he remembered it well.

He remembered how finally anger had become his only god. How he had not given up, searched and searched all of her dripping folds, empowered himself with his selfish desire so that it became too big for the both of them.

Possessing her was instinct, possessing her was survival.

He remembered how his motion had become a blur until he could not know if he was in or out. Could not know if she had stopped cumming or if she shook and spasmed there still. Could not know and could not care. Inertia was on his side, stamina was on his side, he could move forever, and only sheer time could give him what just wanting could not.

He could not remember in that moment when he finally knew her, if she had shrieked piercingly or become suddenly silent. He remembered only the collapse, that she had collapsed finally onto him, crumpled and become void.

He remembered that they had both fallen backwards onto the ground. He had not remembered cumming at the time but he had felt the small of her back stained and sticky with his cum.

And he will always remember that look on her face. For her tired smile was no longer secret, and her dazed honey eyes were not hidden, and that body that trembled and shuddered was his his his, his forever.

Oh yes he remembered it. How he remembered that first night. How finally, both gasping for air, both frantic for an anchor to ground them back to this earth, their lips had met and they had become equals.

3 comments:

Jstine said...

Sad no one's found this great posting yet! Because one would have to treasure the viewpoint you chose -- him, feeling "spaced" afterwards, seeing you there, satisfied, and he's unsure how it went down. Wild!

learn said...

Thanks Justine!!! Glad you read and really glad you liked.

This is the first sexual fantasy I've ever written. It was partly written with T and me in mind, before we had ever had sex. Sent to him: my stories my only seduction lol.

But on the whole it is very abstract. And T is not him and I am not her.

Though I've split this into 5 parts, I really wrote them all in one long go. If you ever do end up reading them all, I'll be your blog slave forever. ;););)

Love,
Learn

Jstine said...

Dear Learn:

Hopefully, this will reach you today, nearly eleven months after we wrote those words to each other.

Because I am still feeling bad -- I seem to have presumed waaay too much on our friendship.

Forgive me?

J